Intro[]
I want to be a writer, and honestly I always have. There is nothing that could possibly convince me otherwise, and I am pretty passionate about writing. I'm not a very good writer, not yet anyway. I don't have a talent for writing, and I would gladly debate that talent doesn't exist, but even if it does, this is not a talent, it is a passion, which can easily become a talent with hard work. -Firefly.
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Bang bang, says my heart who’s beating,
Her delicate veins are stunned
Stunned by words that trigger my mouth,
She’s asked a question since our meeting,
Something that has made me think
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I wish for directions, a way, a whisper,
Something to tell me I’m doing it right,
What if I'm lying to myself?
What if I want something else?
I should know myself off by heart.
I should know what wish to I live for,
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My head is a pandemonium of shouts and objections,
Every sub consciousness has a different opinion,
Of whether or not I want to be a writer.
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Thump thump Says my heart who’s angry,
I’ve said too much, I’ve not been careful
She’s asked me something,
Something merciful,
Something where the answer is fearful,
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Put me anywhere, anytime, anyone
If I were in poverty, I would write with whatever I had,
As long as I had something to write with, even if I was mad,
That goes the same with prison, wilderness or war,
That goes the same with cold, or hot, in fact that would make me want to write more,
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I wish for a hint, a glimpse into the future
Something to tell me it’s not all in my head,
What if I can’t learn?
What if I’m impossible?
Those prying, precious predictable eyes,
They’re always looking for a story in there,
Those delicate, desperate, despicable fingers,
They are always grabbing at a book,
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My heart’s a Colosseum,
Where every opinion fights to the death,
Of whether I want to be a writer,
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Take me anywhere, anytime, anyone
It still won’t change how I feel,
No man can make any deal,
You can’t change my love, my lusts, my passion,
You can say it in any fashion,
You’d fail anyway,
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I want to be a writer
You can say otherwise if you may
My mouth has just opened
I know exactly what to say
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