User blog:Stardust the IceWing-RainWing/possible activity decrease?

heyo, wikians! this is just a small update about my activity on this wiki.

As most of you may know, my activity here has dropped drastically since the summer, and it may continue to fall as the year progresses. If it continues, I might end up stepping down and even taking a hiatus, but the likelihood of that happening is pretty low. This is due to a few reasons that I'll explain below.

I started school about a month ago and it's already pretty much heck. My math teacher is brutal with the homework, and it doesn't help that I'm in accelerated classes for most of the day. I'm also getting a lot more serious with some of my extracurricular classes, which means I'm on my laptop a lot less throughout the day.

In addition, my mental health decided to take a dive. I'm stressing out over the smallest things, not to mention my scoliosis and bone health aren't improving (wdym this isn't mental health stardust--). I'd rather not say why, but some things have affected me pretty deeply, and I do sometimes feel like giving up.

Good news, though: I'm branching out, making new friends and talking to my crush more (>:D). I have high hopes for this school year; I think I'll get through it with a bit more of a social life. I'm in my school's audition-only jazz band too, which starts at hecking 7:30 in the morning. Why. I enjoy it immensely, but I'm often tired throughout the day and don't feel like getting on the wiki after school.

The final thing: this wiki is dedicated to writing. And I don't... write much anymore...? I sort of feel like my writing is really trashy, and sucks compared to everyone else on the wiki. It might just be me, but I feel some kind of pressure too, like "I'm the founder and I technically should be good at writing". This might fall under mental health, but I can't even read a sentence of my writing without mentally bashing myself for how bad it is. I need some time off, to improve my writing, or at least become more comfortable with it.

All in all, I'll probably be less active on this wiki (I won't leave though!). If you read through this whole thing, I am eternally grateful.

have a great day everyone <3