User blog:Luna518/kill me pls

mood

it’s a thing

i don’t feel like eating ice cream or getting out of bed or not crying

help

mood swings are back in motion, thought i got over those after march, send me some pictures of cats. it don’t work.

no one cares but i like screaming about my problems online so i can have no friends online too

i dunno i probably sound like a drama queen but it’s fun not telling your parents you feel depressed and why am i even writing this c r a p

i feel generally horrible about myself

i feel like i look ugly and sound ugly and talk weird and am stupid and annoying and worthless and don’t deserve anything but pain and i got pain but i still hate my life i still hate myself

i feel like actual crap, the crap is probably offended now

i don’t get it, ive done everything to try and make myself happy or try and smile but stuff i love doing i feel ashamed of doing and i don’t wanna get out of my house and i hate crying because i feel weak, i hate telling people about my problems because they might judge me and it’s not as easy as “talk to someone”

no one gets it

it’s just so much pressure and anger and sadness and it’s all piling up and one little word and my voice breaks and i run up to my room and make some lousy excuse so my fam doesn’t see me at my worst

and i hate it i hate it so much i just hate myself and hate how i deal with things and hate not being able to tell anyone but all I have to do is tell someone but i c a n ‘ t

and no one gets it

and i don’t even know why im writing this im just falling apart im a mess i feel like no one cares about me when i know it’s not true but i can’t convince myself that im worth anything

i feel like im worth less than anything

if every human was woth 10/10 i would be worth -10/10

im just such a mess and to whoever wasted their time reading about my life problems, thank you for caring