User blog:Firefly Writings/A little introduction for myself.

Hello! Firefly here! I'm new to the fandom, but I've settled in very quickly! In case you don't know, I love writing, and I write stories everyday, well, I try to. However, I didn't join this wiki because I liked writing, because I could always just use google docs. Instead, I joined this wiki to solve a problem of mine. I suffer from extreme self consiousness, I care about what everyone thinks 24/7. This is because I'm an oddball and I have a rather weird personality, but when I starting coming into my pre teen years, I started caring more and more about my appearance and how I looked physically and socially to other people. This is a big problem for me because a big part of the first draft of a writers book is showing someone it. And I can't even read stories to my own brother without getting embarrassed. This also means I suck at public speaking, because I'm afraid of others judging me for my stories....which shouldn't be a problem, But it is. When I was little, I wrote my very first novel. I remember I was about 9 when I wrote it. It had full chapters and paragraphs and everything. I felt sooooooo proud! I remember the HUGE smile I had when my Mum let me print it, and the shock of when my Dad told me it was too thick to staple. And the thrill of illustrating it in the end. After I wrote it, I wanted feedback, so I shared the google doc to a few friends. A few days later however, my confidence started to boost. So I sent it so all three classes in my grade. Thats right, 84 students recieved my novel that night. And lets just say it didn't go well, because after that I started sending other stuff, like unfinished projects, So when people looked at their inbox, it looked like I was some crazy spammer. So I recieved a lot of comments like "STOP SENDING ME THIS SH*T!" And stuff like that. And I shouldn't have let that bothered me, but it did. And I never wrote in public again, until now. Fears are meant to be conquered, and the only way to do that is to set camp at the heart of the enemy.