Thread:FunAndGamess/@comment-39024013-20190721091223/@comment-37411522-20190727213322

OMG, I needed this so badly.

Basically, for the entirety of this month I've been at my church with people who I HIGHLY dislike. I've been at this church for a summer school system that helps kids learn another language sense everyone there are forced to leran that language sense we're supposed to because we're a certain race. For the past several years I've tried my best to study the language and speak it fluently, but I just can't. All/most of the other kids can and for the past several years of my life I've been treated horribly just because I failed to learn a language, and its messed up sense ya know, I have a GOSH DARN learning disorder! And even if I didn't, its wrong.

Anyway, specifically this month has been torture for me. I have to every weekday for five hours go this summer school from hell to learn a language with people hwo think I'm stupid and with tecahers who 1. can't even speak English or teach 2. Don't care when the students are being jerks.

The students are such brats. The boys specifically, they make sexual jokes(Even about pedophlia which isn't ok) and fight ecah other everyday. They also like making a hobby of making my time there misrable. They shove their stupid achievements into my throat and make me feel like I'm nothing. If I say anything I get am told Shut up" or "You talk too much." If I play my phone while I'm there they tell me to stop because, "I'm breaking the rules." And it's hypocrisy cause sense when have they given one frick about the rules? Its like a underground fighting ring in there. Whenever I'm there without fail, I feel like I wanna kill myself.

The worse part is, my mom doesn't care that I'm losing my mental health in there. I've begged her to take me out of it and my church, but she refuses everytime. She gives the excuse of, "You need to learn to get along with people." And I'm so sick of it. This whole summer I've had no one to turn to to vent my feelings to. I'm a very extroverted person who needs someone to talk to and confess to, and I just don't have anyone in my life right now to have that type of interaction I need this whole summer.

I legit started crying from writing this.