User blog:Toastedkorekiyo/I AM ANNOYING AND AWFUL SO SORRY //VENT

I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO SUMMER SCHOOL TOMMOROW I HAVE BEEN MISSING THERAPHY CONSITIANTLY LATELY AND IM SO TERRIFIED. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW IM A WORTHLESS PIECE OF TRASH IN COMPARISON TO OTHERS AND THAT THEY'LL PUT ME IN MY PLACE BUT I REALLY AM SCARED OF SEEING OTHER KIDS. IT SOUNDS STUPID TO PROBABLY EVERYONE ELSE HERE BUT LIKE..its really scary for me

i just feel like a worthless unloveable piece of garbage all the time. like honestly no one likes me, there isn't even one redeeming quality about my pitiful existence. i wish i could be normal, i wish i could be one of the girls who wears skirts and tube tops and is always partying. i didnt want to be a loser who's holed up in their room wearing all black and hating everything. this has just been a really tough year and i really don't want to see people tommorow because they usually treat me badly and hurt me/tell me to die so like. kinda lost my faith in humanity like in 2nd grade but. and everyone still keeps on mentioning that one girl who i trusted with my life and who like,, told all her friends that she thought i was faking my mental illness and that i should just die. and it really upsets me and like i just feel terrible h. i wish people would stop being mean to me irl,, because like AFTER NINE YEARS RANDOM PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW ME SHOULDN'T TALK GARABAGE ABOUT ME. LIKE YOU DO NOT KNOW ME.

AND MY FRIENDS SHOULDNT DO THAT EITHER,, NO ONE SHOULD. PEOPLE SHOULD ALSO STOP SLAPPING ME AT SCHOOL. AND CALLING ME STUPID. THAT WOULD BE NICE TOO. UGH.

anyway,, im worthless and deserve no love or attention from anyone..

but im like totally fine rn,, like happy and safe just kinda. realizing how lame i am.