Thread:FunAndGamess/@comment-34158552-20190915145425/@comment-44236894-20191107023902

I hate that I constantly feel so depressed every day now.

I hate that I've been cutting myself.

I hate that I want to kill myself.

I hate that I can't talk to anyone irl about this at all because it'll just end the same and start again.

I'm sick of all the abuse and stress, and no one listening to me. I'm sick of my parents constantly saying that I'm faking my depression and that I'm just saying I'm suicidal for attention. I'm tired of being sent back to my parent's house when I don't feel safe there. I don't feel safe in any of my relatives houses; none of them respect that I identify as non-binary and am gay at all. I can't tell my parents because they'll just continue the emotional manipulation and abuse. I can't tell any of the social workers because it's just another trip to the hospital and them sending me back to my parents, or they just don't believe me. I can't tell my irl friends because they'll just tell the social workers again or they won't care at all (they hardly ever listen to me anymore). People seriously don't even try to understand the situation I'm in. I don't feel safe at all with any of my relatives. I don't feel safe at all telling the social worker. What of "I don't feel safe" do they not get?

Also I've got to present a project tomorrow and I really don't feel like explaining but basically everything screwed up and now things aren't working so I have nothing to present tomorrow after doing all that work. Idk what to do anymore I just want to die already