Thread:FunAndGamess/@comment-34158552-20190915145425/@comment-38834833-20191020222939

I feel the same way as you do right now in my own personal ways.

I have to go to church every time I'm with my grandparents for weekends, which is often around twice a month. Of course they say things about bad things about LGBT, yet I took it as offense being a biromantic pansexual. I have been emotionally abused before, so because of that I never told anyone because, well, reasons from my emotional abuse that caused me to despise people and see them in bad ways-- all I thought about humans was that they were cruel and only cared about themselves. Or at least that was what I thought about a lot of people I met and know in real life. Many I know in real life are self-centered and want clout and attention.

I also have severe social anxiety from my emotional abuse, so don't worry, you're not alone. Whenever I go to school I just feel terrified, like something is gonna happen to me in a bad way. Of course I have a good amount of irl friends, but that's really about it because I stopped trusting people with my social anxiety.

I'm also in a club; a Minecraft club at my school was hosted on Wednesday. It was so large that they had to split the club in to two days, so some would attend on Tuesday and others would attend on Wednesday. I was surprised.

I also feel like I don't deserve to keep living, because even though my sister was convinced to stop, she still continues to. It's something she'll pretty much never learn the effect on me and how I felt about it. I have been insulted many times by her as well. In fifth grade because I wouldn't let her borrow one of my things she told me I should live in a dumpster. I've been feeling like this a lot recently, so I just looked up inspiring quotes and whatnot to see if there was anything that could make me continue on without my bad thoughts. I would recommend this.

I looked here and this helped a bit. Maybe this might help? https://www.success.com/17-motivational-quotes-to-inspire-you-to-be-successful/