User blog:Hajimeme Hinatoes/I've made a little decision change.

Heya guys. A while ago, I created a blog where I was considering leaving the wiki or not. I then created another blog stating that I was going to stay, not because I'm not happy here, but because I love you all. The thing is that I sorta.. changed my mind.

Ever since I joined FANDOM, I had been in a state of confusion. I was scared by the littlest of things and didn't like trusting others or making promises. I created a fake personality so that people would like me. I tried staying positive and smile more, despite hurting on the inside. I lied about the real me, that that was just me being moody or sad, like the other users on FANDOM.

Honestly, I never thought it would work. I thought that I would just give up and leave the WOFF Wiki after three weeks or so. But I didn't. I made friends and for once, I was happy. FANDOM was a place where I could pour out my heart and finally open up after so much suffering, whether it be family issues or toxic friends.

Soon, I joined this wiki. I was quickly intrigued after seeing Stardust's ad on the WOFF Wiki. The same feelings rushed back to me; frightened. Though, I just used my fake personality once again. It was fine at first; I made friends and finally began opening up.

But, as time moved on, I began feeling.. distant? Ignored? Like, I felt unwanted. When people would leave messages on my message wall, they were usually just about badges and crap like that. My old shell, my trust issues, came back once more.

I began dwelling on unnecessary and untrue things. I began to feel anxious each time I came on here and that I would be forgotten. I was scared. I didn't belong here. I felt as if I didn't matter, that nothing matters and if I was gone no one would miss me. The support from users on the wiki didn't help. I just felt worse and began hating myself even more.

This wiki wasn't meant for me. I don't belong here. I'm sorry if you guys will miss me, but I can't keep going on if I'm unhappy. If you'd wish to contact me, just look at the WOFF Wiki (though I know no one will). I love this place, I love it so much. I love everyone here, but your words of support sometimes make me feel like I'm different and unimportant. I don't know why. I'm sorry.

Bye.